Yeah yeah yeah… it has been a while since I last posted, but I have been swamped.
I have been out of town for the last 3 weekends or so, and it has been amazing. I am enjoying seeing more of the US then just Chicago. I am not knocking Chicago at all, I have actually loved it more this last month and have gotten more enjoyment out of it now than I have for the last 4 years that I have lived here.
I have gone to millennium park a few times and just stared at the bean and people watched. Tonight I went and saw invasion of the body snatchers in Grant Park and it was pretty fraggin awesome. I met up with a bunch of friends including my sister, who made a sweet panini for me. It was grilled veggies with goat cheese and it kicked some behind.
I think part of the reason I have been going out more is because I have been kind of seeing someone who is an out-of-towner and I am forced to show her the city…the city I live in and nothing about! I sit around all day at work and fart around on the computer…then I come home and work more on the computer…it is driving me insane…so going out the last few weeks has been great…gets my mind at ease and lets me know there is more to life than sitting at a desk and making some money.
Speaking of more to life… I come home from San Jose SES (see pictures below) on Friday at about 10:30 PM. I call my sister to tell her I have landed and she tells me my grandpa was put into the hospital.
We went out to the suburbs on Saturday to see him, and he was doing really well, except that he is extremely weak. He has little strength left in his legs and was falling down. He was sharp as a tack though and is doing pretty good for a 90 yar old man…kind of crazy. I look at him and wonder what the hell I am doing with my life…
I took my sister and grandma out to lunch and we just sat and talked. It was nice. i then bought a lucky bamboo plant that I think is beautiful. It is just something about the plant that gets me going…that and the vase/pot it is in. Something with the bamboo hit me the other night when I was watching a Bruce Lee Documentary… he fought an opponent with a piece of bamboo and spoke of how the bamboo was flexible, and that one must be flexible in order to succeed. It made total sense to me and fits in with what I believe…
I need to add some of his works to my list of too read, and then read everything that Bruce Lee read…I also need to read all the books mentioned in another book I am reading. I need like 12 years off of work so i can hone my brain and figure out why I am so unhappy with my life.
I have numerous things to be happy with, a decent family, great friends, a good job, money, etc… yet my life totally lacks meaning. My birthday is in a few days and I will be 26… and I feel as though I have accomplished absolutely nothing with my life…I dunno, 1/4 or 1/3 life crisis I assume…
If anyone has any suggestions for me please let me know…or if you want to donate a few million dollars to my life so I can do nothing but read and paint, that would be great…I would paint you a picture that would be deep and reflect all the crap that goes inside my head… UH_MAZING
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